Start

So,
this is the start to my own blog. Honestly reflecting my own interests it has to be about lust.
The picture for this premiere is of "Dandelion" formerly of the "stuffer31" website.
Looking at the picture, two things come to my mind. First, she looks like she did just overeat, really stuffed. Second, she is presenting herself, her body, in this condition. The picture demonstrates exactly the opposite to hiding shamefully and feeling guilty after loosing control. She is proudly presenting her unwillingness to control her appetite and also the disabling consequences on her body: no doubt she won´t be able to perform any physical demanding task in this bloated state.

Why does it turn me on?

My guess: she gains seductive power through demonstrated vulnerability. The same old mechansisms that were evoked by crippled female feet, the corsages, the high heels, bondage or the burden of oversized breast implants.

If she is too full to move fast, she won´t be able to run away from sexual advances. And when she explicitly demonstrates this, she invites the viewer to perceive her as an object of his lust.

Those who need such drastic signs of vulnerability must have pretty little trust in their own sexual charisma, or am I wrong? Well, there´s always room for getting better...

I´m intereted in these relations between vulnerability and power in the context of desire, I want to look at it as a kind of open playground, a place to try out feelings and identities. Of course there are a lot of restrictions concerning gender roles, the grammar of seduction, the definition of beauty etc.
But hopefully, there is the possibility for ambiguity and undefined open space.