Why do huge breasts attract me?

I just contributed some thoughts in a forum and why not share them her also:


To me, these aspects are of relevance:

- deviance, standing out from the norm
- sensuality, a focus on the physical body
- emotional sensitivity for symbolic power and interpersonal processes

First: I´m generally attracted to stuff that defies the norm, like Lady Gaga and Beth Ditto or Slayer, the Marquis de Sade, monster movies...

Second: I am fascinated by the body/mind duality of the human existence - my existence. In a way, I am an animal, I am a piece of flesh ( and bones...). And so are others. I can talk to my girlfriend about abstract theories and I can grab her. Prominent flesh puts the focus on the body, the animal aspect of our being. And prominent breasts especially have sexual and/or nurturing connotations.

Third: body parts can be seen anatomical, but also on a symbolic level, they can be a means to express and execute power over others, or they can be presented as a gift... craving, desire, attention, power... a certain tension, an emotional disbalance is important for me. Big breasts can be just a nuisance for a girl or woman - for good reasons - or something they hardly care about, and then they loose most of their erotic power they could have on me.

Fritz

I love Rosalba "Fritz" Martinez.

Sin or what?

I like this picture. It looks wrong in just the right way.

I do not smoke myself, I don´t even drink alcohol.

But I like the gesture, like "we don´t give a damn".

It´s not even about freedom, about indulging without any consequences. The bloated bellies clearly show effects.

The interesting point is the lack of guilt, even pride in the self with all it´s flaws.

I love the "Krazy Kat" comic-strip by George Herriman. It focuses on obsession: Ignatz Mouse can´t stop throwing bricks at Krazy Kat while Krazy takes this as sign of his love.
That´s it.

I started reading "Eroticism" by George Bataille, at a pace so slow it will take me ages to finish the book. He has an unconventional approach giving evil a prominent position in his philosophy, in the Youtube-Clip, he connects it to literature.

It is difficult to relate to evil in any other way than to condemn it or defiantly stick to it, but it´s interesting to me.

Start

So,
this is the start to my own blog. Honestly reflecting my own interests it has to be about lust.
The picture for this premiere is of "Dandelion" formerly of the "stuffer31" website.
Looking at the picture, two things come to my mind. First, she looks like she did just overeat, really stuffed. Second, she is presenting herself, her body, in this condition. The picture demonstrates exactly the opposite to hiding shamefully and feeling guilty after loosing control. She is proudly presenting her unwillingness to control her appetite and also the disabling consequences on her body: no doubt she won´t be able to perform any physical demanding task in this bloated state.

Why does it turn me on?

My guess: she gains seductive power through demonstrated vulnerability. The same old mechansisms that were evoked by crippled female feet, the corsages, the high heels, bondage or the burden of oversized breast implants.

If she is too full to move fast, she won´t be able to run away from sexual advances. And when she explicitly demonstrates this, she invites the viewer to perceive her as an object of his lust.

Those who need such drastic signs of vulnerability must have pretty little trust in their own sexual charisma, or am I wrong? Well, there´s always room for getting better...

I´m intereted in these relations between vulnerability and power in the context of desire, I want to look at it as a kind of open playground, a place to try out feelings and identities. Of course there are a lot of restrictions concerning gender roles, the grammar of seduction, the definition of beauty etc.
But hopefully, there is the possibility for ambiguity and undefined open space.